Good grief!

I am still here, thanks for asking. My broken arm and shoulder continue to cause much pain, even after almost two years now. I’ve been going back and forth with my graduate Dean, trying to get my thesis proposal accepted. Uh, not so fast … it’s been to and fro  three times, and I still need to make many corrections. My university is very strict about its writing standards, including what should or shouldn’t be included in a thesis proposal. As of yet I haven’t done it right, so plod along we shall.  Continue reading

Be back soon!

Sorry folks, I’ll return soon with a new post about the effort of mentally organizing and rearranging my thesis proposal. It’s an interesting process that I’ll return to in earnest beginning June 1. In the meantime, a continued leave of absence is ordered because of my arm and shoulder. For now, ponder this from the recently retired but still my favorite economist, the esteemed Dr. Thomas Sowell:

Having lived long enough to have seen both “the greatest generation” that fought World War II and the gratingest generation that we see all around us today, makes being a relic of the past more of a boast than an admission. 

Here’s irony for ya

Well folks, I was gathering information so I could create a properly formatted thesis proposal. Before I started the tippety-tappety on my PC, I managed to shatter my shoulder, break my upper arm — both of which are on my dominant side. Thus I’m typing this right now with my left hand. Worse yet, my right hand and fingers are still swollen and I’m not able to close the fingers to make a fist, nor type with them. That’s the biggest problem of all.

Do you know how the orthopedists treat such breaks? I was handed a sling in the E.R. on May 24, having waited two days to get to the E.R. (in my PJs, no less!). I’ve seen two orthopedists and it’s true, a sling is the treatment.

Guess what? There has been no new bone material healing on my shoulder or arm. Yep, it’s been more than three months and although the pain has lessened, there’s no healing yet. The best hope is to get something called the Exogen, an ultrasonic thingy I will use on the broken parts. I bring it home, use it for 20 minutes on each area, daily. Then we check on any progress, probably every four weeks.

But … you might ask — why not surgery and pins? Well, not only can I not do that because of osteoporosis, but pins won’t work for a “shattered” shoulder.

My graduate dean and advisor teased me, saying I’d do anything to avoid working on my thesis proposal. Heh. Right now I have taken a leave of absence that’s going to end Sept. 30th. Looks like I’ll probably ask for mercy and more time off. I’m guessing I’ll need at least through spring of 2017.

So don’t give up, eventually you’ll see my thesis here. I hope to call it “Through the Looking Glass: Finding God, Good and Evil in Six Contemporary Films.”

  1. 1998 episode of The Outer Limits: “Josh”
  2. “Love Comes Softly,” based on the book by Janette Oke
  3. “Contact,” based on the book by Carl Sagan
  4. “Pleasantville” (this one is a stretch and a challenge!)
  5. “Frailty”
  6. “Storm of the Century,” based on the book by Stephen King

You may discern the order of film discussion is short, positive and hopeful — to long and very dark, evil. In other words: short ==> long; God and Good ==> Evil. I’m very excited about my subjects and choices because they’re all rich in symbolism by means of the characters’ traits and actions.

So that’s it folks. I hope to post again soon, if possible. I do need your prayers.

Steyn’s brilliance: a must read

Notes After New Hampshire

By Mark Steyn

Published Feb. 15, 2016

According to exit polls, in New Hampshire on Tuesday night, two out of three GOP voters favor Trump’s proposed temporary ban on all Muslim immigration – despite the universal reaction from the massed ranks of the politico-media class that this time he’d really gone too far. In other words, as I said all those months ago, it’s the old Broadway saw: Nobody likes it but the public.

The only reason any pollster is even asking this question is because Donald Trump proposed it. As those numbers suggest, any of Trump’s rivals could have helped themselves by “stealing his issue”. And yet no other candidate has gone anywhere near it – or anything like it. Perhaps one reason why American elections have the lowest voter participation rate of almost any developed nation is because the political class mostly seems to be talking about its own peculiar preoccupations. Consider this astute observation by Steve Sailer:

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John Locke, 17th Century U.S. “Founding Father”

Well, here it is, the final course in my master’s program in philosophy/religion through Harrison Middleton University. For some reason John Locke, and the other two authors, were tough to get through. The volume actually contained three authors that I read and studied: John Locke, George Berkeley, David Hume. All three are considered empiricists, although you wouldn’t know it while reading each one. Locke believed in knowledge coming through sensory input, a typical empirical view and philosophy. But … as one of my professors noted, Berkeley was almost opposite in his beliefs. He offered his philosophy, also considered empirical, that all knowledge begins in the mind through rational thought, and nothing exists outside that thought. Hume was somewhat of a rebel — he was accused of being an atheist, and he seemed to be a composite of Locke and Berkeley’s views of how we learn and understand. All three men wrote treatises concerning “human understanding.” A note to my readers: academic writing requires third person, never first person, unless it’s a creative literature piece.

Next stop:  thesis. It will include the “Great Ideas” of God, Good and Evil. Gee, nothing like choosing easy subjects!


John Locke – empiricist philosopher, scientist and researcher – developed his theories of human knowledge, thought, understanding and resultant behavior over the course of nearly twenty years (ix), which culminated in his innovative An Essay Concerning Human Understanding. It is generally accepted that Locke’s influence extended to later refinements of empirical theories, including those of George Berkeley and David Hume. Locke sets the tone of his Essay, in the first book and chapter, by clearly asserting there are no innate ideas (95); he then continues to define types of ideas as originating from man’s senses (128). It follows, therefore, that only sensation and reflection are the means by which man develops simple ideas, which thus lead to complex or compound ideas and knowledge (128). He subsequently explains how we come to understand and make sense of sensory input: whereby the mind “… turns its view inward upon itself, and observes its own actions about those ideas it has …” (131). Most of Locke’s Essay continues in this approach of explaining how man learns and understands – through sensory input and/or thoughtful reflection of what has already been observed, then developing simple ideas into more complex beliefs and notions.  Continue reading

Hacking, redux

I don’t think I mentioned this before, maybe I did, but it bears repeating. Then I’ll give you my opinion. (Update: see comment after this post!)

In the mid-90s, when I was a manager for tech support — people who took care of desktops, laptops, servers and the California county network where we worked — there was a web site called There you could be endlessly amused by hackers who took over web sites and posted on the initial web page (called the “landing page,” where you first land when you go there), the hackers in those days did so just to prove they could enter a purportedly secure web site. Invariably, they would let visitors know that they “owned” the site, sometimes they used profanity, sometimes not.
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Here’s something to make you lose your lunch

Caution: rated disgusting and nauseating.

You need to watch this. Let’s count how many times you gag at the sight of a woman blithely eating her Caesar salad, slurping her wine, all while talking about harvesting “fetus” (not baby) parts to sell. And … they’re illegally doing this by manipulating the unborn child so they can perform the procedure using partial birth abortion. This will hopefully land all of the Planned Parenthood officials in prison and be forced to pay the $250,000 fine. Exposed by the Center for Medical Progress.

Selling aborted baby “parts”

Sorry folks, I’ve been getting through John Locke

Well, my final course is Locke, Hume, Berkeley. John Locke was a great influence on our country’s Founding Fathers. His arguments concerning liberty and the social contract later influenced the written works of Alexander Hamilton, James Madison, Thomas Jefferson, and other Founding Fathers of the United States. In fact, one passage from the Second Treatise is reproduced verbatim in the Declaration of Independence, the reference to a “long train of abuses.” Such was Locke’s influence that Thomas Jefferson wrote: “Bacon, Locke and Newton … I consider them as the three greatest men that have ever lived, without any exception, and as having laid the foundation of those superstructures which have been raised in the Physical and Moral sciences.” (From Wikipedia: John Locke)

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If Thy Story Offends Thee, Change It!

Reality May Be Optional

By Walter Williams

Dr. Walter Williams

Published April 15, 2015

One of the wonders of modern times is that reality is often seen as a social construct and therefore optional. Thus, if one finds a particular reality offensive or inconvenient, he just “changes” it.

Say that one is born a male or a female but believes that nature made an error. Some believe that nature’s “error” can be corrected by calling oneself another sex. Possibly a medical procedure on one’s genitalia can correct nature’s error. However, Mother Nature is ruthless. Sex determination is strictly chromosomal. Females are XX, and males are XY. There is no medical procedure that can change that. Once a male or female, always a male or female.

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How to mortgage your country’s (and childrens’) future

I didn’t write the following but it’s important for everyone to understand the consequences of the government attempting to “manage” 1/6th of the economy: our personal medical care.

The Damaging Effects of Obamacare

Alyene Senger / March 04, 2015

The Supreme Court heard oral arguments today in the case of King v. Burwell—a challenge to an IRS rule under Obamacare that provides the payment of premium subsidies to individuals enrolled in the federal exchange. Obamacare’s advocates have made various claims about the harm that would supposedly occur if the court were to find for the plaintiffs (King) in this case. While it is not surprising that those claims have attracted attention, it’s important to remember the harm being caused by Obamacare.

Infographic by Kelsey Harris

Let’s hope you’re at the top of the Bell curve

For those of you who think this is paranoid writing, check out the WaPo article about the shortage of physicians; the article below will make perfect sense about its reasoning:

If you or a relative are disabled, very young, very old — guess what? You’ll be relegated to the “go home and take a blue or red pill for pain” division of the Liberal Death Squad. Read carefully. It holds the key to exactly what the government really thinks about your life, no matter the condition you’re in nor your age: not worth much, other than paying taxes until you die. The link to the original document is listed below. Ironic that Dr. Emanuel is writing on behalf of the Department of Bioethics. Now you know why Jonathan Gruber laughs hysterically at the stupidity of the American public for being unaware of the hidden hazards within Obamacare.

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Magical fairy dust (warning, real science ahead)

We live on an island, a very liberal viper’s nest of Obama supporters, “green” this, “organic” that, and those tiny, wretched, putt-putt electric cars (that sport the obligatory Obama stickers). Let’s explain one thing before continuing. This island is rural. We have almost no street lights along the main artery running through the middle of the island, on which everyone travels at 50-60-70 mpg, you name it. When I say everyone, that includes the tiniest of Mopeds to the heavily laden logging trucks, zooming up or down the island’s main highway. The multiple side streets — some public, some private — meandering into farmland, housing areas, houses on multiple acreage — virtually no street lights to be seen. Driving around here is terribly frightening, especially at night, in the Pacific NW rain, and at all times your eyes must be on the lookout for deer springing out of nowhere to scare the wits out of you. It may sound amusing, but hitting, or being hit, by a full-grown buck is very dangerous for all involved. If you’ve never traveled in rural wooded areas on highways with high speed limits, you can’t imagine what it’s like. We have two SUVs, one mid-size, one large. Still, we’ve had many close calls and we’ve seen several direct hits by other cars.

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I told you so, months ago. Did you pay attention?

As I’ve noted previously, and often to my staff, family and friends: the only secure computer is one that’s turned off. Period. Here are two stories that prove my point, so pay attention and please take this seriously.

Here’s one that almost parallels an earlier post where I described the chain of events that intruders or hackers can easily discern if you’ve likely just had an abortion:

This one describes people who are so technically incompetent that they are unknowingly streaming everything from their web cams out to the world:

Now you know why I’m not on LinkedIn, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Skype or any other social/professional media site. It’s an ugly world out there. If you don’t know what you’re doing, tech-wise, then hire someone who’s competent to help you. Or else don’t do it.

You’ve been warned.

Wanna see some beautiful conservative women?

I bet you didn’t know the Clare Booth Luce Policy Institute publishes a fabulous calendar every year that features beautiful, smart, talented and influential conservative women. I get mine free because I’m still a student, but you can purchase yours here for a very reasonable price:

The CBLPI also holds a Western Women’s Summit in Santa Barbara, CA twice a year, as well as hosting many events and lectures around the country. Check them out and please consider supporting these conservative women leaders and the CBLPI.

John Calvin and free will

John Calvin was an early Reformer of the Protestant movement that began with Martin Luther, continued with Calvin and Huldrych Zwingli; probably the most notable and well-known break from the Roman Catholic church was Henry VIII of England. And the rest, as they say, is history. From Calvin’s theology rose the Calvinists, Puritans and what we today know as Presbyterians.

Although Calvin is known for his doctrine of predestination and fore-ordination, my book for this course included very little on this controversial theology, mainly because the volume was only selections from his Institutes. Still, I found a compelling and interesting theme in Calvin’s writing in his Institutes of the Christian Religion: God wills and allows all actions; nothing happens without His specific knowledge and permission. By the time Calvin completed his many revisions of the Institutes, there were four books with 80 chapters.

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Maybe we should call it “Giftmas” instead of Christmas

If it were up to the secular and non-believers (Happy Holidays, ugh!) we should forget the “Christ” in Christmas and focus on overeating, drinking, parties and of course gifts. This is a joyous celebration of the birth of Christ, hence the name. In honor of the Judeo-Christian founding of this country, let’s review the constitutions of every single state; with very few exceptions as noted, their references are to God, Almighty, Creator, Lord … the phrases vary but the intent was quite clear. So read and learn. Visit the cited web site if you want to read each constitution.

Have a very blessed Christmas and I hope for a successful New Year to all.

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Thoughts about death of family or friends

These are two poems by Emily Dickinson that I read at my mother’s funeral, 35 years ago, and for my first husband’s funeral, 5 years ago. I also pointed out during each service that the one who just passed on was a Christian, now enjoying the glorious love and presence of God. We can weep for ourselves, friends and family who will miss the departed’s earthly existence, but crying for the dead is not productive, that is, if they knew God. As believers, our ultimate destination is to be with Him in His eternal love and light. Several people came up to me after my mother’s funeral and told me what I said during the eulogy made them feel better. I pray for all of you who suffer from the death of loved ones, because I have lost so many of mine, and I truly hope this helps, even if only a little.


I held a Jewel in my fingers—
And went to sleep—
The day was warm, and winds were prosy—
I said “‘Twill keep”—

I woke—and chid my honest fingers,
The Gem was gone—
And now, an Amethyst remembrance
Is all I own—


I went to Heaven —
‘Twas a small Town —
Lit — with a Ruby —
Lathed — with Down —

Stiller — than the fields
At the full Dew —
Beautiful — as Pictures —
No Man drew.
People — like the Moth —
Of Mechlin — frames —
Duties — of Gossamer —
And Eider — names —
Almost — contented —
I — could be —
‘Mong such unique
Society —

Parents, children and God

An inspiring article that has given me a greater understanding of the parent/child relationship. I hope it helps you.

             Jewish World Review (11/14/2012)

By Yaakov Y. Shain and Avi Fishoff

The Divine set up the world with an innate indestructible love that every parent has for his child.

Let’s analyze this for a moment:

Just as you can build a relationship and create positive feelings toward another human being, so too those feelings can cool off and the relationship can dissolve. A person can detach himself emotionally from any relationship; you can split from a business partner, dissolve a friendship, and even divorce a spouse. However, parents can NEVER STOP loving their children, because the relationship is not man-made; rather, it is a natural instinct created by the Divine.

But what about all the pain, agony, and frustration a child can sometimes cause his parents? Doesn’t it sometimes seem that some parents “hate” their child?

When we see frustration, tension, and anger between parents and children, we are actually witnessing the manifestation of their indestructible bond, because when parents overreact and “freak out,” that is the very proof that their internal love is still intact. It would be much LESS painful and much EASIER for parents to cope with a difficult child if their loving bond would lessen as their relationship deteriorated. The proof is: Would they ever get this worked up because of their neighbor’s child, their nephew, or anyone else in the world!?

Therefore, when a child sees how angry and frustrated his parents are because of the way he acts, he should realize that this proves how much they love him! For if they didn’t love him so much — they wouldn’t be so infuriated!

Furthermore, if the child would become deathly ill or in need of a kidney, these same parents — who seem so full of hate toward the child — would surely do whatever is necessary to help save their child! And what if the child would, Heaven forbid, die? Who would bury the child — mourn the child — say Kaddish for the child . . . ? Only parents grieve endlessly and even decades later still feel pain and longing for their child!

Here’s a powerful example of this concept:

King David’s son, Absalom, is the perfect example of a son gone entirely wrong. After all, what can possibly be worse than a son trying to murder his father!? Yet when Abshalom was killed, David cried out eight times, “My son” and he could not be consoled! He even cried out, “If only I could have died instead of you!”

The lesson to us is clear: A child always remains a child regardless of what he does, and even when it seems that the child has destroyed his relationship with his parents, the internal connection is still completely intact. We all know of many stories where parents and children made up with each other even after many years of horrific fighting and separation. Had someone else caused that much pain to the parents — there would be NO coming back. But with a child, emotions and tears pour forth with words of love as soon as the walls of separation come down. The reason that children, and particularly young adults, have so much trouble understanding this concept is because of one sad fact: It simply does NOT work both ways! The natural inborn love that a child has for his parents is not nearly as strong as the attachment the parents have for their child. Therefore, until a person has his very own child, “unconditional love” is just a theoretical concept but not a feeling he can actually experience. He can hear the concept of a father risking his own life to save his child — even if the child is mentally challenged and physically ill — but he doesn’t have anyone in his life for whom he would actually do that.

It is for this reason that a child can begin to comprehend and appreciate his parents’ unconditional love for him only after he has his own child toward whom he will feel unconditional eternal love.

The difference

This is the difference between the parent/child relationship and ALL other relationships. All other relationships begin when you meet someone and begin to develop a connection. At this point your association is purely external and is void of any internal feelings. However, as you continue to share life experiences together, you will develop an internal bond with that person.

Thus, every other relationship begins with externally getting along and “liking each other” and then it slowly works its way into the internal emotional zone of love. Under normal circumstances, you can’t develop a real emotional bond with someone you just met two weeks ago. You can really like them and enjoy being with them, but it takes time until that connection develops into internal emotional feelings.


However, when parents create a child — the love they feel for their creation is not based on any external factors, since the baby has not done anything and is not doing anything to earn their love or respect.

Yet “internally,” in the emotional zone of love, a parent’s heart is completely in love with their child right away, from the very first minute!

What did this baby do to earn this kind of emotional attachment?

Absolutely nothing! And that is precisely why this love is: Indestructible! Thus, the basis of “true love” is an internal emotional connection that is an indestructible, unconditional, internal, eternal bond. You are emotionally attached to that person and that is not based on how well you get along or how strong your exterior connection is.

When love is dependent on something external, then when that thing is taken away, the feeling of love — that developed only because of that external thing — will evaporate. However, when the love you feel for someone is not based on anything external, then it can NEVER be destroyed.

Therefore, the only way that true love can develop is if an internal emotional bond is created. This happens slowly over time by helping each other, giving to each other, supporting each other through hard times, etc. . These things build a true internal connection between one person and another. After true love develops, even if the external factors fade away over time, the internal connection continues to grow stronger and stronger. However, the deep feelings of love and attachment that a parent has for a child are inserted by Hashem directly into the internal zone of love without going through the external process. Therefore, it is unconditional and indestructible.

There is no internal joy like the “nachas” parents get from their child . . . even a little baby cooing . . . saying “mama” . . . crawling in the mud . . . eating melted chocolate with his hands . . . it’s all “delicious” to his parents. (Just to “his” parents!)

Conversely, there is no pain like the pain parents feel when their children give them agmas nefesh (grief); from little things that bother them way out of proportion, to big things that break their hearts in a way that no child can even begin to understand. Yet even if the outer connection between parent and child is so damaged that they may even seem to hate each other, still and all, the interior emotional connection and inborn instinctive feeling of unconditional love remains completely intact.

As we have seen with King David, his son Absalom was ready to take his father’s life — yet when Abshalom’s life was taken, his father cried out in terrible pain. So too, regardless of what happens between parents and their child — nothing can break the eternal bond.

The Holy Zohar teaches us that the physical world was created as an exact mirror image of the invisible mystical world above. Just as we explained that a child cannot comprehend the concept of “unconditional love” because it does not exist in any of his relationships, so too, parents would never be able to comprehend this unique concept of “unconditional love” if they did not have this feeling toward their children.

We can now appreciate that the reason the Divine chose to create the concept of an instinctive unbreakable love from parent to child is specifically so that we could have some way to comprehend the concept of unconditional love! For if there was no earthly concept of “unconditional love,” then we would have no way to wrap our minds around the idea that the Almighty can love US unconditionally!

“You are CHILDREN to the Lord your God!” (Deut. 14:1)

The Divine chose to call us His beloved CHILDREN, knowing full well the ramifications of this comparison — and He certainly meant it — in every sense of the word! Interestingly, as seen above, the instinctive feeling of love that parents have toward their children is far stronger than the love children feel toward their parents. Accordingly, we can be sure that the Divine’s love for us far exceeds the love we can possibly feel toward the Almighty. Authentic Judaism believes that the love parents feel toward their children is instilled by the Divine as a natural instinct and it is not dependent on anything at all. Now you know exactly why Hashem chose this specific way to describe His unconditional love toward each and every one of us!

Now you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that regardless of who you are and what situation you are in . . . the Divine loves . . . YOU!

Does God make mistakes?

Either He does or He doesn’t. If He does make mistakes, then how do we explain the fact that some people are attracted to the same sex? By that, I mean born that way — not experimenting, not undergoing some youthful exploration, but knowing from a very young age they were not like most others due to attraction to their own gender. Early on, they felt odd, out of place, they were absolutely certain they were drawn to their own gender, even loved them. So if God doesn’t make mistakes, do we try to “wish” this away, pray for the person’s soul, deny it exists, pretend some kind of therapy will cure or squelch such attraction because it’s an aberration? I can’t imagine someone telling me I could be “cured” of finding men attractive; that is, if I only tried hard enough and had the right therapist and was adjusted accordingly. Nope, I was born with an attraction to the opposite sex. I remember a quote I read many years ago: “Why would I deliberately choose this life for myself? Why would I invite scorn, ridicule, jokes at my expense, loathing by others, even to the point of friends and family refusing to acknowledge me, losing jobs or not even getting jobs because of it? It’s something I simply am, I had no choice in what made me and whom I love and cherish.”

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